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I guess to stay happy is to keep the sorrow and upset away, to kick away anger and negativity. Easier said than done, I always believe as long as we're ourselves, treat people the way you want them to treat us. Be true, be young and be naive; be pleasant and generous and moreover always carry a big heart with us.

Theoretically this is the rule to stay positive. However when there're so many happenings going on and shit sometimes just drops on your head :). I just found I'm recently paying much more attention to people's words, especially those I think they're good friends. I personally could never understand why they would talk like that considering they're quite close with me and seem to be smart people, my friend said because I seem to be too much 沒所謂, so they thought they could talk whatever they wanted.

First was this auntie criticizing me in front of a hiking group, I'm sure she said it purely in the best will and meant no harm to me. But I was totally shocked she could talk about that in front of few strangers and some people I don't even like.

Second was one of my best friends joked in front of others (few happened to first met too) that they shouldn't talk anything in front of me because I couldn't keep secrets. Then teased my cousin being smarter than I'm. While I agreed and said yes she's not only so young but also smart and mature. He bursted into a laughter looking at someone I don't like, and said I was being weird of saying my cousin's young when he's saying she's smart. Feeling a bit angry and upset I left him alone.

I was thinking why I wasn't happy with them? The reason is surely very simple, they're my best friends. And what best friends do? I believe is to stand behind us and support us, in public and private. True words should be shared of course however they should be just between us because when it's personal, it's not meant to go public.

I suddenly have a bad feeling that maybe I treated them this way that's why they treat me back the same. Then I think hard and couldn't find any memory about this. When it comes to a group, I always say positive things about them and never make lousy jokes about them. It's always good to give face to other people. When it's between good friends, of course we can say whatever we want and be silly.

Just some silly and small things on the daily chores, but they're definetely good reflection for me, also keep me in remind of myself the followings:

1. aways say postive things to other people

2. be as relaxed as possible

3. stay positive and caring

4. stay a fool, stay silly

Most of all, stay forgetting. Good to have the negativities off my chest.