teamaster的部落格

So here I go, I did another laser treatment to lighten my pimple marks and scars, after listening to my doctor. In addition to the cheeks, I specially asked to lase my eye bags because I wanted to look better. My cheeks're swollen and red after the laser which I wasn't really worried about because I got experience.

However the second day I woke up with a swollen face and my eyes're half of the original size. I looked at the mirror and got so pissed off at myself and was deeply regretful for doing another treatment. I hated that I didn't listen to my fds and family for not doing anything more to my face.

I told my fds my saddness, one friend comforted me by saying 相由心生, we look beautiful if we're beautiful at heart. Well I agree with what she says, but I guess she has never experienced being the center of attention. Nevertheless who's gonna study your beautiful heart at the first sight?

I know very clearly how superficial human beings are. You got to have a beautiful look hence people want to study your heart more. I, personally am also a very superficial person and it really takes more effort to pay attention to someone who's physically less attractive.

But then I laugh, who's gonna care how we look afterall, because we'll end up leaving a 臭皮囊 to this world, and nobody's gonna care how this mortal flesh looks, and eventually it'll become part of the earth. And only the shiny golden heart being kept in the memory of people.  

So maybe we have a choice of being a nice looking and golden heart human being..........